I have been off of social media for roughly sixteen days. I did not want to believe what they say about social media to be true, but reluctantly I must admit it is true indeed.   Social media IS addicting. … Continue reading Social Media

Last Saturday morning at 5:00AM, I sat alone on the floor of my kitchen bellowing in agony. I was holding a knife up to my chest. I wished to drive it through my heart. I applied enough pressure so that … Continue reading Like the Switch of a Blade

I cannot recall a single day over the last six years, in which I would not mind if I were struck by some unlucky fate that resulted in my demise. If it were not for my family and really close friends, … Continue reading Existential Crisis 

On the outside, she exudes beauty and brilliance, and wears the most radiant smile. She feels deeply, loves fiercely, and always manages to see the good in everyone. She has this infectious way in which she inspires people through her … Continue reading Outside In.

During a manic episode, I experience an increased level in energy that I would describe as a kind of “high.” I develop a heightened sense of self in which I am fun, flirty, fierce, fabulous, and fearless. “Who would not want to be me?” I am basically unstoppable.  I also do not feel the need to sleep much during periods of mania (well hypomania in my case). And I engage in reckless activities such as unrestrained shopping sprees… OR clubbing the night before a major assessment. Then the irritation begins to set in. And while I do not actually hear voices, … Continue reading Bipolar Disorder explained through GIFs

It was 4AM last night. I sat at the edge of my window sill, letting my feet dangle outside in front of me. The night was tranquil as silent raindrops bounced against the fire escape. My eyes began to water … Continue reading Don’t Let Go

Do you know what it’s like to feel unwanted?  Like a piece of chewed gum that is stuck to the bottom of someone’s shoe? Harmless, but still a nuisance? Do you know what it’s like to be the book that … Continue reading Unwanted

I still have several days in which I am ready to give up, days in which I am ready to say goodbye; however, I put on brave face and I try to be okay.. But it never seems to be … Continue reading Never Enough 

Most people welcome the new year with great excitement and see it as chance to start over, reinvent themselves, or make some kind of great change to their lives. For me, however, the new year represents the unknown, unforeseen misfortunes, … Continue reading New Years

I overthink EVERYTHING. “What am I going to wear?” “What if we have nothing to talk about?” “Should I take a sedative beforehand, or have a drink? Or wait and see how I feel?” “Does he actually like me, or … Continue reading Why I Hate Dating Part I