Happy Mental Health Month! I know it has been a while since the last time I posted, so I would like to start off with a brief update on myself. I am doing really well. I just completed my first year as a full-time student since 2016 and I received a 4.0 GPA for both semesters. I was really nervous about going back to school full-time and was afraid I would have another setback, but I have truly thrived over the last year. In addition to having a successful school year, I have gotten a lot better at striking a … Continue reading Mental Health Month 2020

Anyone who is deeply sensitive knows that it can be a burden at times. Personally speaking, I have a lot of difficulty with letting go of negative feelings, thoughts and experiences. Whenever I feel deeply wounded, it is like a blow to my heart. My heart literally begins to hurt, and depending on the severity of the situation, the pain does not let up for days. In those moments, I truly believe that I will never be okay again and do not how I will go on. Slowly, but surely, the pain does begin to subside; however, it never completely … Continue reading Sensitivity

I never thought this day would come… The day that I would be writing a post about feeling okay again. The menacing voices in my head have been silenced. No more sleepless nights or wakeless days or insatiable exhaustion. I am feeling motivated again. I have dreams and aspirations that make me feel excited. I feel alive again! Although it took me several years of suffering to get to this place, I needed this journey. It has allowed me to learn about myself and the world that I live in, and it has taught me to be more patient and … Continue reading It does get better.

After feeling depressed for so long, wellness feels extremely foreign and uncomfortable. With recovery, comes a new set of expectations and responsibilities. I feel pressured to function as well as I once did. I am enrolled in three classes this semester. I have not taken this many classes since the spring of 2016. If all goes according to plan, I will be receiving my associates degree this spring. While these successes are all measures of my progress, I am terrified. All of the friends I had had when I was a full time student are either in their last semester … Continue reading Recovery

I have been sexually assaulted more times than I can remember. It happened once, twice, three times, and then slowly I became desensitized to the harassment. The first time I was assaulted, I hadn’t even had my first kiss. I had just begun college and I had pretty much steered clear from boys up until that point. I had decided that in this new chapter of my life, I was finally going to put myself out there and try new experiences. I was at Life in Color. It was light and fun at first. I enjoyed the attention I had … Continue reading #metoo