I cannot recall a single day over the last six years, in which I would not mind if I were struck by some unlucky fate that resulted in my demise. If it were not for my family and really close friends, … Continue reading Existential Crisis
On the outside, she exudes beauty and brilliance, and wears the most radiant smile. She feels deeply, loves fiercely, and always manages to see the good in everyone. She has this infectious way in which she inspires people through her … Continue reading Outside In.
During a manic episode, I experience an increased level in energy that I would describe as a kind of “high.” I develop a heightened sense of self in which I am fun, flirty, fierce, fabulous, and fearless. “Who would not want to be me?” I am basically unstoppable. I also do not feel the need to sleep much during periods of mania (well hypomania in my case). And I engage in reckless activities such as unrestrained shopping sprees… OR clubbing the night before a major assessment. Then the irritation begins to set in. And while I do not actually hear voices, … Continue reading Bipolar Disorder explained through GIFs
It was 4AM last night. I sat at the edge of my window sill, letting my feet dangle outside in front of me. The night was tranquil as silent raindrops bounced against the fire escape. My eyes began to water … Continue reading Don’t Let Go
I had very little hope and feared for the worst. I did not believe any tutor was capable of helping me turn my grades around… especially with only 3 weeks of the semester remaining. I was sure I was going to fail Honors Pre-Calculus. I could not begin to fathom what would happen to me if I had failed. I loathed myself. Only the thoughts of working hard, getting into NYU Stern, the school of my dreams, and having the chance to start over kept me hanging on. I just could not imagine what would happen if I had failed. … Continue reading Chapter 6
Do you know what it’s like to feel unwanted? Like a piece of chewed gum that is stuck to the bottom of someone’s shoe? Harmless, but still a nuisance? Do you know what it’s like to be the book that … Continue reading Unwanted
I still have several days in which I am ready to give up, days in which I am ready to say goodbye; however, I put on brave face and I try to be okay.. But it never seems to be … Continue reading Never Enough