To the people that I love: 

I apologize for pushing you away. 

You see, the disastrous part of myself has been unleashed, and I am afraid it is not a pretty sight. 

You should not have to watch me struggle, or worry about me, as I do not want to add extra burden to your life. 

You should not have to chose whether or not you still love me. 

In fact, I cannot let you decide whether or not you can still love me in all the ways you did before…Because I have already made the choice for you. 

Distancing myself from you is far less painful than knowing you gave up on me when I needed you the most. 

For I cannot bear knowing that I am a disappointment.